I like to see myself as a new age rockstar. I'm a sales rockstar. I also play music. I don't always relate to rockstars of the past. I see myself as the type of rockstar you would be able to sit down and have a beer with. I look at celebrities and sometimes they don't seem real. It's not their fault though, it's more a portrayal they have in the media. Celebrities are just as real as you or me. They were people who had a vision for what they wanted and went after it. It takes a certain level of responsibility to be in the entertainment space. I've toyed many times with ego and vanity. It takes self-promotion which can be hard at times if you're into self-loathing.
People experience a work of art differently. Each person will interpret a piece differently. Nowadays there is not much of a definition to art. What I mean is that there are no limits to what someone can call art. I don't create art. Art can be too limiting to whatever medium people like to view what you're doing. Oh, you're an artist. No, I'm not an artist or a musician. I love to create, yes this is true, but an artist. I'm no artist. I'd prefer to call myself a magician. This is a better term for what I like to do as an "artist." Because for me, it's about shifting people's perspective. It's about showing you something old in a new way. It's about just creating.
It's about living. I'm a living magician. My instruments of magic are a pen and a page. A guitar or a piano. My voice. Making noise. The perceptions I'm after changing I don't even know that much. Maybe it's just to change my own perception. But by having a certain level of self-expression it gives me even more conviction in my own thoughts and beliefs.
Comedy is something I love too. I like to watch a lot of comedy videos on youtube. There's so many great comics out there. With comedy it's about telling a vivid story. It's about putting things together that you don't normally think of. I've watched comedy at time and seen it as a sort of poetry. Comics like George Carlin. He makes you laugh and he makes you think. That's the kind of stuff I'm into. Thinking. But thinking without doing never gets you very far.
For example yesterday I was thinking of writing someone I know a letter thanking them for their impact on my life. I haven't done it yet. I'm not sure if I will do it. I was satisfied just thinking about it. That was enough. It made me think of other goals in my life and other things I've told myself I've wanted to do. I couldn't help but laugh because so often I've been caught in mental masturbation, as one of my favorite authors would say. It's the thought of something great, or a great idea but never taking action on it. I finally realized why I do that, because I was satisfied with just the thought of it. I imagined her getting the letter too. I imagined it all. And that's it, I didn't even want to go further with it. It might be because writing the letter takes effort. It takes making myself vulnerable. It takes handling the fear of rejection. What if she doesn't respond the way I imagined? So often we give up on doing something because we are afraid it won't work out the exact way we imagined it. So why even try? Try because you never know what will happen. Try because if you don't you will regret not trying. You will look back on your life and wonder.
I don't want to wonder any more. I'd rather face fear, rejection, doubt, whatever comes with the trying than to wonder. I'm tired of wondering. I've wondered most of my life. What have you been wondering about that you know you need to take action on? What are you doing today to move toward your dreams?
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